thinking out loud.

i feel like i should write on my blog since it's been quite some time. 

i can't really say i've been too busy to write, because i definitely haven't been

i shouldn't say i have nothing awesome to write about, because i do.

               actually i have a lot of awesome things to write about.. i JUST DON'T WANT TO WRITE! not here.

i guess i'm just lethargic. which is ok by me.. sadly. 

i would go play with Riss... haha tried that earlier and we just sat in her room making up awkward music videos.. i enjoyed it, but.. right now i just want to color in my giant coloring book.

it's super cute. it has a bunny on it. and there's one with princesses. I love how my mom randomly gets me kid stuff, it makes me feel young... i AM still young, so that's a good thing. ugh. 20. i am going to be 20. i remember when i turned 16. i felt old then. i guess the older you are, the older "old" gets. my aunt told me that one time. so true. i could be doing a whole bunch of things right now. i should write in my journal, since i'm behind. i could go help with dinner. i am just wasting my time on the computer, just because it is in front of me. how pathetic. one day, i am going to realize what a boring teenager i was. i should go rebel or something, ya know, make life interesting. 

nah. 

Random duck picture? check.

but i do what what i will do. i am going to get off this computer and do something awesome, so my grandkids won't think i was a lame kid. that's right. Grandkids. i'm doing this for you. thanks for the motivation. i owe ya one.